The holidays have come and gone and the new year is here! 2019 Came and went in the blink of an eye. I must say that 2019 was probably the hardest years of my life! Between a horrible accident that left me in a wheel chair for months and pain that I have to deal with daily, to loosing my step sister, to an ugly custody battle that seems never ending… it was a defintitly brutle one!
Starting this year off… something was different… My whole mindset has changed. I don’t have energy to do certain things or be around certain people anymore… I guess I’m at a point in my life now where if something feels like it’s draining my energy or fighting with my peace of mind, its gone… Instead I choose to rise above and just be the best version of myself that I can be. At the end of the day that’s all we have control over… ourselves!
Every year social media is filled with everyone’s New Year’s Resolutions and promises for change, and every year I wonder what I should take on, or give up… never actually choosing anything. Never making any changes to better life, or let go of a bad habit. Is it out of laziness? Possibly, but I don’t think so. I think I’ve just needed that right push, the right motivation to improve.
On December 19th I watched my step sister struggle to take her last breaths… an image that I will NEVER be able to erase, nor do I want to. For in those moments all I wanted to do was jump inside of her and somehow take those breaths for her… I wanted to save her life! In that moment something hit me like nothing has ever hit me before… I want to live! And I mean truly LIVE!
Life is far too short and can be taken away from you in just a moment. So what are you doing with your life? Are you just going through the motions.. doing what needs to be done to get by? If so, I’m right there with you… but I’m not fulfilled, I’m not truly happy… I’m not living!
2020 will be the first year that I have a New Years Resolution… and that is to let go of the past and to LIVE for the present. To take chances and to try things out side the box.
What’s your New Years Resolution?